Gruvvy · Single
Waiting for My Life (To Start Again)
Intense. Brooding. Throbbing. Undertones of paranoia and regret, overtones of hope and determination. (Or, is that the other way around?) Part anthem, part dirge, part trance. You COULD dance to it, in a zombie-like way. Not really sure how one might categorize this song. It's definitely in the rock arena, but there's some alt vibe here - Leonard Cohen meets Nine Inch Nails? There's some soul and blues. Many of the ambient-like effects you hear are the product of a hand-made instrument we affectionately call "the bike." Played by drummer/percussionist, Sean Lane. So a little nod to electronica. This song was written in limbo. The love of my life was done with me, and trying to move on, but we were still living under the same roof and I was holding out small hope we might yet patch things up, even though she had, as she put it, hardened her heart. I'd been here before in relationships. People feel they have to "harden their hearts" to protect themselves and marginalize you. I get it. But I also KNOW that true, unconditional love NEVER hardens its heart. The opposite. But that also takes someone who is safe, secure, and confident in who they are and how they feel; someone who loves themselves first. A rare thing indeed. So this was written as I was grieving my loss, but also wondering what was next and wanting to see if my life would start again. Hanging out in the "bomb shelter," waiting for my life to start again.
1 recording
Cover art by
David Nyro
Lyrics
Waiting For My Life (To Start Again) © 2016 By David Nyro V1: I’m down here in the bomb shelter, wond'ring if it’s safe to go outside I’ve seen a lot of good folks going down I’ve seen the casualties of pride I know we’ve all got things we must hide But it’s time to step outside I’m waiting for the rising sun, the starting gun, a sign to be my guide I know we’ve all got different ways and destinies The road is long and wide Chorus: I’m waiting for my life to start again I’m waiting for my life to start again I’m waiting for my life V2: I’ve never been particularly brave But I never thought I was a slave I was doing time inside my head, Sentenced by the things that you said Others came and added to my chain, Forged in pain, they’re not to blame. Deliver me from shame I’m waiting for the birds to sing, to grab the ring Someone to call my name Chorus: I’m waiting for my life to start again I’m waiting for my life to start again I'm waiting for my life I’m down here in the bomb shelter wond'ring if it’s safe to go outside I’ve seen a lot of good folks going down I’ve seen the casualties of pride I know we’ve all got things we must hide But it’s time to step outside I'm waiting for the rising sun, the starting gun, A sign to be my guide I know we’ve all got different ways and destinies The road is long and wide Chorus: I’m waiting for my life to start again I’m waiting for my life to start again I'm waiting for my life