Gruvvy · Single
Carry This
Carry This was written in Eaton Canyon, which sits at the end of my street in Altadena, California, after a simultaneous internal and external storm. As my nervous system screamed, I gravitated to the roaring river to drown it out. This acoustic arrangement (a full band version will follow eventually) was recorded in 2024, and, fittingly, delayed due to the Eaton Fire of January 2025, which started mere yards from where I had been writing. It destroyed most of the town and killed 19 people. Seems fitting that a song about trauma was birthed in a place that has since caused so much. If you have two voices in your head that love to argue about how safe you are in the world (or if you just have one that knows, without argument, that you aren't), this is for you. - Courtney
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Xs & ARROWs
Lyrics
Wait, be very still Feel the restless beat upon the shore Stay until the clouds come rolling faster Gifting lightning to exhilarate your mind Retain your will Just to keep from falling backwards Let the tide rise up and Carry you awhile Ooh, drop your wariness Ooh, the tide will carry this Let it carry you awhile Hey, what did you say? "Clench your fists while you are sleeping, Keep the guards up all hours of the night" Hey, what did you say? I hear you conjuring old memories The storms of this unease that I can’t shake Ooh, lean right into it Ooh, the storm will carry this Ooh, turn it over to the tide Let it carry you awhile I always swore you know I swore I’d be the best of me I’ve been at war I’m still at war With the rest of me So let me play this out I think I’ve got it down Oh, your voice or mine Two sides of the same desire It’s my choice this time Remember what’s passed is through Believe that you are safe in this deluge Ooh, walk right into it Ooh, the storm will carry this Ooh, turn it over to the tide And let it carry you awhile